Okay, this week was definitely not a walk in the park. The first few days I had major headaches and during rush hour I was looking at the stop signs like they where chocolate covered strawberries. I can't believe how much I was using chocolate as an emotional doorstop. If I am stresses, I reach for the chocolate. If I am tired, I reach for the chocolate. If I am happy, I reach for the chocolate. I know...disturbing. I really have some work cut out for me.
I think the key is going to be finding other outlets for my emotional energy. Maybe more running? Until next week.
Lavinia
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Monday, May 19, 2008
Confessions of a Chocoholic
My name is Lavinia and I am a chocoholic. There, I said it. I have had a love hate relationship with chocolate for as long a I can remember. This addiction ebbs and wanes depending on my life circumstance. If I am under a large amount of stress, chocolate is my go to remedy, and if it is a celebratory season, of course, I whip out the chocolate. Lately, my addiction has been getting the upper hand and I have been weakly trying to gain control again.
Recently I spoke to my sister, Maria, to check in and she mentioned off hand that she had given up chocolate for lent. A light bulb went off in my head and I instantly forgot what we had been talking about. Like her, most of my sweet treats and binging involve concoctions made with chocolate. If I could simply give up the good stuff, just maybe my diet would improve by default. I really don't eat sweets like jelly beans and vanilla ice cream, it has always been; go chocolate or go home.
I committed that day to give myself 30 days with no chocolate to see if I could gain control of my crazy cravings. I picked May 19th, 2008 as D-day and filed the event away enjoying all my favorite sweets at my sons birthday celebration the weekend before. Last night, May 18th felt like the night before a big exam. Yes, I had my doubts. "What am I, crazy", I said "Chocolate is my coffee!" After a fitful sleep, the morning came and I was facing my first day chocolate free.
Today had been difficult. I have wanted to quit a million times, but I know Maria managed to do it and I believe with a little will power, meditation and discipline I can too. I plan to document this journey in this blog, the good, the bad and the ugly. Hopefully this will help someone else take the plunge and continue to improve on their health.
Lavinia
Recently I spoke to my sister, Maria, to check in and she mentioned off hand that she had given up chocolate for lent. A light bulb went off in my head and I instantly forgot what we had been talking about. Like her, most of my sweet treats and binging involve concoctions made with chocolate. If I could simply give up the good stuff, just maybe my diet would improve by default. I really don't eat sweets like jelly beans and vanilla ice cream, it has always been; go chocolate or go home.
I committed that day to give myself 30 days with no chocolate to see if I could gain control of my crazy cravings. I picked May 19th, 2008 as D-day and filed the event away enjoying all my favorite sweets at my sons birthday celebration the weekend before. Last night, May 18th felt like the night before a big exam. Yes, I had my doubts. "What am I, crazy", I said "Chocolate is my coffee!" After a fitful sleep, the morning came and I was facing my first day chocolate free.
Today had been difficult. I have wanted to quit a million times, but I know Maria managed to do it and I believe with a little will power, meditation and discipline I can too. I plan to document this journey in this blog, the good, the bad and the ugly. Hopefully this will help someone else take the plunge and continue to improve on their health.
Lavinia
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